Awed in the Presence of Beauty.
Another short, one-shot today. I am still re-editing in a frenzy at the moment, because I would like to put up the chapters of the newer version of Nerdanel's Story in quick succession. There are some alterations to what I previously wrote in the actual story line - though I think I have retained the style and basic ideas. But I am trying to show Nerdanel as a bit more hopeful of some happiness than previously. I am trying to show that she doesn't think that Eru will keep all of her sons from her until the End. (Those of you that know this story will probably realise I am thinking of Ambarussa the younger.)
But today is Thanksgiving, so I would also like to take a moment out to wish my U.S. friends a very happy day. :)
Even I, in rainy old Blighty, had roast turkey and cranberry sauce today!
And a visit to the osteopath may have discovered the reason for the migraines! Here's hoping! ;)
I may have used this picture before - blame it on the sudden excitement of having access to showing photos again. It is of Crummock Water, looking towards Buttermere; the Lake District, Cumbria. We have had some great times there.
Awed in the presence of beauty
“But the Quendi shall be the fairest of all earthly creatures, and they shall have and shall conceive and bring forth more beauty than all my Children …”
(Ilúvatar: Of the beginning of days The Silmarillion J.R.R. Tolkien. Ed C. Tolkien. HarperCollins p 35)
With many thanks to Ellfine for beta reading.
He stirs restlessly on the bed beside me, eyelids flickering over open eyes as he endeavors to make sense of the images given him in dream.
So beautiful is he to me!
I have already known much of beauty in my life. Is it not part of being of the Eldar? Is it not something we ever seek to show forth - to sub-create, to conceive – Ilúvatar’s gift to us? There is much beauty inherent in our people, in the creations of our hands and minds. But never before have I fully appreciated how utterly awed by physical beauty one can be.
Oh, the light of the Trees is truly a wonder to behold, and the Valar in the forms they take to walk among us are nigh indescribable in their radiant glory. This blessed land in which we live, this cleft of light; it is an astounding place all too easily taken for granted.
And I have known great beauty in individuals before. Of a certainty have I – who am not amongst those most notable for their appearance - been blessed with knowing that! But as I watch his face, his form, he is beyond all my expectations.
As I watch him closely, his restlessness increases, head turning from side to side, arms moving, fingers spreading open, seeking to grasp hold of something, as if he would be about some work of craft. I reach out most gently to touch him; concerned least my movement breaks the enchantment that holds me fast.
I would not break the hold he has on me. Nay, even though I am exhausted from all he has demanded of me these last few days, yet I cannot take my eyes from him and seek rest for myself.
I want to keep watch over him!
Soon he will be fully conscious, and my time will be his to command. But how can I deny him that. I cannot deny him anything he needs or desires. So full of love is my heart that I am awed in his presence.
Again, the sudden movement, the focusing of his eyes upon me, that I draw him comfortingly close, feeling his warmth as he nuzzles against my cheek, my neck – my breast.
Something of my appearance he may have, yet it is an ordinary beauty crafted into a form of perfection that only his sire could have bequeathed him.
My beautiful one!
My firstborn babe …
My Maitimo!
- - - - -
Maitimo - Maedhros
Another short, one-shot today. I am still re-editing in a frenzy at the moment, because I would like to put up the chapters of the newer version of Nerdanel's Story in quick succession. There are some alterations to what I previously wrote in the actual story line - though I think I have retained the style and basic ideas. But I am trying to show Nerdanel as a bit more hopeful of some happiness than previously. I am trying to show that she doesn't think that Eru will keep all of her sons from her until the End. (Those of you that know this story will probably realise I am thinking of Ambarussa the younger.)
But today is Thanksgiving, so I would also like to take a moment out to wish my U.S. friends a very happy day. :)
Even I, in rainy old Blighty, had roast turkey and cranberry sauce today!
And a visit to the osteopath may have discovered the reason for the migraines! Here's hoping! ;)
I may have used this picture before - blame it on the sudden excitement of having access to showing photos again. It is of Crummock Water, looking towards Buttermere; the Lake District, Cumbria. We have had some great times there.
Awed in the presence of beauty
“But the Quendi shall be the fairest of all earthly creatures, and they shall have and shall conceive and bring forth more beauty than all my Children …”
(Ilúvatar: Of the beginning of days The Silmarillion J.R.R. Tolkien. Ed C. Tolkien. HarperCollins p 35)
With many thanks to Ellfine for beta reading.
He stirs restlessly on the bed beside me, eyelids flickering over open eyes as he endeavors to make sense of the images given him in dream.
So beautiful is he to me!
I have already known much of beauty in my life. Is it not part of being of the Eldar? Is it not something we ever seek to show forth - to sub-create, to conceive – Ilúvatar’s gift to us? There is much beauty inherent in our people, in the creations of our hands and minds. But never before have I fully appreciated how utterly awed by physical beauty one can be.
Oh, the light of the Trees is truly a wonder to behold, and the Valar in the forms they take to walk among us are nigh indescribable in their radiant glory. This blessed land in which we live, this cleft of light; it is an astounding place all too easily taken for granted.
And I have known great beauty in individuals before. Of a certainty have I – who am not amongst those most notable for their appearance - been blessed with knowing that! But as I watch his face, his form, he is beyond all my expectations.
As I watch him closely, his restlessness increases, head turning from side to side, arms moving, fingers spreading open, seeking to grasp hold of something, as if he would be about some work of craft. I reach out most gently to touch him; concerned least my movement breaks the enchantment that holds me fast.
I would not break the hold he has on me. Nay, even though I am exhausted from all he has demanded of me these last few days, yet I cannot take my eyes from him and seek rest for myself.
I want to keep watch over him!
Soon he will be fully conscious, and my time will be his to command. But how can I deny him that. I cannot deny him anything he needs or desires. So full of love is my heart that I am awed in his presence.
Again, the sudden movement, the focusing of his eyes upon me, that I draw him comfortingly close, feeling his warmth as he nuzzles against my cheek, my neck – my breast.
Something of my appearance he may have, yet it is an ordinary beauty crafted into a form of perfection that only his sire could have bequeathed him.
My beautiful one!
My firstborn babe …
My Maitimo!
- - - - -
Maitimo - Maedhros
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posted by Nerdanel_Istarnië | 4:59 PM
2 Comments:
Hee-hee! Hope you enjoyed the turkey and cranberry sauce! :) As for my family, we went up to Tennessee to eat dinner with my grandma and grandpa. The meal was delicious, and we had a great time.
You said that the osteopath may have discovered the reason for your migraines? *huge gasp* Pleeeeease, keep me posted!
(By the way, what's an osteopath?)
Glad that you had a great time with your grandparents. I love the 'festival' roast. We don't often eat a meal like that! Thanksgiving isn't really celebrated here. But some folk, who know the tradition, do something family based. I like the idea, myself.
Osteopaths specialise in back / joint / bone problems. It seems I 'did something' to my neck when I skidded down a hillside awhile back! !!! It could be the reason for this last session of headaches.
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